[quoe]Your long post was the easiest to peel (like an onion) because it was standard God as a higher/omnipotent belief - by way of the visitation of the Holy Ghost/Spirit. As I child I heard it all and was leLizanne333 - what's making you laugh? are you playing with me? Is this about the individual/joint replies I thought I had detected in an earlier post? (Though I've decided that so long as I monitor myself, that'll be fine.) I don't mind not understanding, and if the joke's on me then at least it's not at the expense of anyone else.[/quote]
Dear Lovelyugly
Did I spell that right? Don't want to offend you by
misspelling your name. Truly, ok?
Heck, it seems so easy to be misunderstood these
days.
Guess I have to just remain "clear" about my intent!
Not sure what is happening to me, but yesterday,
it seemed like magic.
I gave myself up to whatever "magic" seemed available
here.
And believe me it is magical to me.
Don't know yet what the ramifications are, probably
will take a few days.
I became confused, didn't know who you were, still
don't
but it seemed like you were reading my life, and it
felt like a major "twist" in my perspective.
Here, in Corvallis, I have gone to Churches and the
Bahai Faith, where they are still holding the incredible
Word they have in there intellect.
The Bahai's literally turned their backs on me, when
I had given them my heart and soul, insisting that
"We cannot know God". Why they would want
to continue to hold such limited understandings is beyond
me. All I know is because of events in my live, I have
no boundaries, and their treatment of me, sending me
away, wounded me deeply. I was living proof, and they
still could not "see".
Oh well!
As far as Leslie and Richard are concerned, yes, that too.
I answered an ad in 1980-"Warm Hearted Christian Man
with Real Estate, needs wife with savings acct."
I felt led-went-20year marriage, but he wouldnot let
me be me, which was this horrendous gutwrenching
need to relieve myself of the pain inside of me.
I brought the $, he was the sun and I was the moon
revolving around him. All projects, and while I benefited
financially, were envisioned by me for him.
The only time he would allow me to spend my money and
now his money was on the renovation of houses and
those things and projects.
I suffered from depression quite a bit, and rather than
trying to understand, he psychologically beat me up,
and then left me with a 23 acre farm to take care of,
a 16 year old son, and 3 other properties to completely
manage, plus now I had to work full time, went back
to California on his Harley and the law required that I
take care of everything here for us while he "found"
a new reality down south.
Well, I also had a boss, who seeing, 1 my talents, and
2 my "emotional weakness", continued to undermine
my efforts, and control how much $ I made.
He "saw" he could do this, and messed with me, furthering
my difficulty of handling the divorce and everything else.
I checked out! Ended up in the horspital for a week.
Guess I went manic? Oh well, that was interesting too!
My, my such brilliance!
Just a wondering, it seemed yesterday in our initial
conversation as though you were and enquirer.
Turns out you are an astro traveler?
Cause last night, it seemed as though I flew up and out
and beyone this entire universe!
Something uniquely special 'bout this forum, wouldnt ya
say?
Lizanne