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May 20, 2004 1:18:43 GMT -5
Post by milena on May 20, 2004 1:18:43 GMT -5
been out of touch for a while and kinda lost my way a little. Guess I forgot to look at the bigger picture. Guess I forgot to love to fly.
Feeling human not playful, feeling dull not shining.
love and laughter
milena
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Jun 17, 2004 20:14:27 GMT -5
Post by hi on Jun 17, 2004 20:14:27 GMT -5
Dear milena, I used to follow this website and i talked to you too during that time. life has its ups and downs. I kinda have gone thru so many phases, i dont even know sometimes why i am doing what i am doing its strange. i sometimes feel i lost my real me, but i guess thats hwta life is evolving changing and flying...you will fly too if not today tommorrow you will believe in yourself, believe in God good luck
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Jun 17, 2004 20:20:04 GMT -5
Post by hi on Jun 17, 2004 20:20:04 GMT -5
At one point of time i felt i found true love but i guess i did not. there is nothing called true or false in this world, they either love you or they dont....i dont know. i dont even know what i want sometimes.
its crazy world, its tough, people re after money fame, name,,,,there is nothing called love ,,,,i dont even know if my own family loves me or not they are so lost after money and their lives no one cares,,,sometimes its hard to take,,,,i have no one to share my sorrow with,,i talk to god but you know we are humans we just need some good person who can listen and not impose their being on us, hard to find one in this world.. anyways good to see you here again take care
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Jun 17, 2004 20:30:02 GMT -5
Post by hi on Jun 17, 2004 20:30:02 GMT -5
all i see everywhere is love for money fame name,,is this correct? i dont know...i guess i am not materialistic enough
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Oct 15, 2004 14:59:50 GMT -5
Post by flyer on Oct 15, 2004 14:59:50 GMT -5
hallo Milena, I think that is very difficult to change the world but we can easly to change own attitude. I shoul want to say more in english but sorry ma english is very limited
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Oct 23, 2004 12:44:28 GMT -5
Post by jonathanfan on Oct 23, 2004 12:44:28 GMT -5
milena~ May your soul find what you are looking for and may your heart find the smile you are seeking. Blessings to you and I will think of you this day, as I sit on the beach to meditate.
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Nov 6, 2004 16:55:17 GMT -5
Post by Rebekah on Nov 6, 2004 16:55:17 GMT -5
It is good to read an honest heart. You are welcome to share and know that you are not alone.......someone is reading, listening, hearing what you are feeling. Love is in all of us. It takes a little digging to find the treasure. Keep on digging. You have my support. At one point of time i felt i found true love but i guess i did not. there is nothing called true or false in this world, they either love you or they dont....i dont know. i dont even know what i want sometimes. its crazy world, its tough, people re after money fame, name,,,,there is nothing called love ,,,,i dont even know if my own family loves me or not they are so lost after money and their lives no one cares,,,sometimes its hard to take,,,,i have no one to share my sorrow with,,i talk to god but you know we are humans we just need some good person who can listen and not impose their being on us, hard to find one in this world.. anyways good to see you here again take care
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Mar 9, 2005 12:59:44 GMT -5
Post by Dwayne on Mar 9, 2005 12:59:44 GMT -5
Rebekah says: "It is good to read an honest heart. "Indeed. This artist also lost his so-called "family" over the stigma (or label) of "mental illness" after my near-death experience from injury & illness in 1996. My "family" is also one of extreme material possesion, money & so on, diametrically opposed to my work & my life. Happens. Am labeled a bi-polar type II hypo-manic/depressive ever since surviving that horrible "calamity" (same illness that Jim Henson of the "Muppet Show"died of). You are not alone, " hi". ~Dwayne~
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Mar 9, 2005 15:22:44 GMT -5
Post by Edina on Mar 9, 2005 15:22:44 GMT -5
Jim Henson had died of pneumonia, is that what you're referring to?
I'm sorry to hear that your family labeled you like that. It's really unfortunate when you're surrounded by people who out of their own insecurities feel the need to judge you. I've been through this with my family too... So somewhat can relate. When I couldn't find a job in my field at home and didn't earn as much as they expected me to in others, they just disowned me. I was a "NOBODY" in their eyes with "foolish thoughts and dreams" and with the very little I had, had to survive on my own. Today looking back at the way they treated me, I'd have to thank them for it, because THEY made realize if tomorrow I was dropped off at the North Pole, I'd STILL survive. On the other hand, I'm not sure if I could say the same about them.
Till this day, they value others by what they earn and have, and live empty, meaningless and stressful lives. Unhappy ones at that. Defined by only what they "have". Having the means, but no meaning.
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Mar 9, 2005 16:09:18 GMT -5
Post by Bluebird on Mar 9, 2005 16:09:18 GMT -5
I'm sorry to hear about your difficulties, Dwayne and Edina. I guess I haven't really experienced anything alike it. Small things, of course, but I think I can call myself lucky. My family thinks I'm a hopeless idealist, but somehow it always works out for me, and well, too, for that matter. I think that at some point they realized that I will try to pursuit my dreams the best I can, and now they (usually) support me.
Perhaps I'm weaker than you when it comes to standing on such experience. I'd like to think of myself as strong, having gathered strength on a different ground. I admire people (like you) who find their own way through a life difficult enough to strip them of their dreams if they don't watch out.
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Mar 9, 2005 17:57:14 GMT -5
Post by falioN on Mar 9, 2005 17:57:14 GMT -5
The objective of this realm is to help others see the true meaning of life..You must help another realize that this life is not about societal tribulations, which is false...im a stranger being than most. I sometimes accidentially drift from my flesh. at first IT really put me on the verge of a real mental breakdown. Unable to control my "drifting" I lost control of myself in my current reality. Medications didnt work of course. Shock therapy proved un-useful. Schitzophrenia was a hypothesis..but they were way off....Then those blue beings id mentioned came to my aid..My earlier encounters with them as a child did not even compare to the intense relationship they built with me during this time. They taught me control, and meaning in another form of communication that i cant even began to translate....Richard Bach has some connection th either them or myself...After my first book ILLUSIONS, these memories surfaced...
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Mar 9, 2005 18:15:22 GMT -5
Post by Edina on Mar 9, 2005 18:15:22 GMT -5
Would you mind telling us more about them? Or any of your encounters?
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Mar 9, 2005 18:51:11 GMT -5
Post by faLION on Mar 9, 2005 18:51:11 GMT -5
They appeared feature less, glowing sky blue. As if they were covered in latex rubber from head to toe. They were curious about us. Always gathered around my baby sister, heads cocked, peering into her crib as she babbled at them..Id seen them with my brother (who is a year younger than I) on numerous occasions. He has the Same memories As I. At around six years old I started experiencing terrible, horrific out of body drifts..I would lie in bed shaking with fear, as the room grew larger ,and larger, expanding at an uncanny speed, then I would suddenly "be" in the corner of the ceiling, a condensed ball, feeling the size of a marble, peering at myself! scared as hell..!! Then ZOOM back into myself!! screaming..I would run to my parents with my experience, to be told "It Was Only A dream"....It was after these experiences that "The Blue Men" as i would call them , would visit..Very playful they were, they seemed to ease my confusion instead of adding to it.
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Mar 9, 2005 19:11:08 GMT -5
Post by Edina on Mar 9, 2005 19:11:08 GMT -5
Do they still visit you? How did or do you communicate with them? And why did they choose you? What did/do they want? Do you know?
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Mar 9, 2005 19:22:17 GMT -5
Post by Falion on Mar 9, 2005 19:22:17 GMT -5
No I havent seen them since I was about ..Ten i think. I do see human formed entities pretty often,,,as often as normal.Twice recently I saw A form of Light..Like a mini nebula. My dog alerted me to the first one, shone as bright as fire, only lasted for 10 seconds...they were playful with me and my brother..appearing then quickly hiding .I remember giggling, and laughing, no memories of trying to speak with them, they never spoke to us, happiness was a sense of language, which is all i remember feeling.Im not sure why they visited us. I dont know..im searching for answers....
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