Post by Shrug on Mar 7, 2005 16:03:11 GMT -5
I have been unable in these past few hours of learning of Richards and Leslies divorce, it find much concrete information.
I suppose it does not really matter.
What matters is my shcoke and dismay.
How could any two beings, filled with so much light, and life, and learning possbily walk away from each other.
There is a tightness in my chest at this news. I do not know whether to cry or to give in to rage, or hopelessness.
I never made an icon, or even an example of either of them. I simply took comfort in the knowledge that there were two people in the world so much like my wife and I.
I thought "here, of all the people in the world, are two people who understand what I understand, believe what I believe".
It all seems unreal to me. We took very similar paths, Richard and I, and I thought we ended up at the same conclusions.
I am as happy with my wife as is possible and happier every single day. My love for her, my respect is such that I feel like I am going to burst with joy each day. The next day I feel it even more.
In an infinite universe are we not capable of infinite love, of infinite, learning and growing? If so, how is it possible that two people could part after growing so much together?
The only thing I can think of which makes any sense is that Richard has some sort of spiritual learning disability.
I thought he had moved past the point of endless beginnings and on to real growth and learning. All he really did was stretch out his beginning with Leslie to a very long one. Now he has begun again.
Just this morning I was thinking of writing a letter to Richard and Leslie to tell them how much they meant to us, now every Bach book I have is heading for the garbage. After learning what I have how can I ever trust any word which issues forth from him again?
Leslie saved his life in so many ways, helped him grow beyond what he ever thought possible, and he repays her by reverting back to a selfish bastard? Unbelievable! What an incredible hypocrite.
I will be a long time recovering from this news. I know when I share this with my wife tonight we will cry at the loss and waste of it all, but then we will dry our tears and continue on with our never-ending journey, together as we have for hundreds of years.
I suppose it does not really matter.
What matters is my shcoke and dismay.
How could any two beings, filled with so much light, and life, and learning possbily walk away from each other.
There is a tightness in my chest at this news. I do not know whether to cry or to give in to rage, or hopelessness.
I never made an icon, or even an example of either of them. I simply took comfort in the knowledge that there were two people in the world so much like my wife and I.
I thought "here, of all the people in the world, are two people who understand what I understand, believe what I believe".
It all seems unreal to me. We took very similar paths, Richard and I, and I thought we ended up at the same conclusions.
I am as happy with my wife as is possible and happier every single day. My love for her, my respect is such that I feel like I am going to burst with joy each day. The next day I feel it even more.
In an infinite universe are we not capable of infinite love, of infinite, learning and growing? If so, how is it possible that two people could part after growing so much together?
The only thing I can think of which makes any sense is that Richard has some sort of spiritual learning disability.
I thought he had moved past the point of endless beginnings and on to real growth and learning. All he really did was stretch out his beginning with Leslie to a very long one. Now he has begun again.
Just this morning I was thinking of writing a letter to Richard and Leslie to tell them how much they meant to us, now every Bach book I have is heading for the garbage. After learning what I have how can I ever trust any word which issues forth from him again?
Leslie saved his life in so many ways, helped him grow beyond what he ever thought possible, and he repays her by reverting back to a selfish bastard? Unbelievable! What an incredible hypocrite.
I will be a long time recovering from this news. I know when I share this with my wife tonight we will cry at the loss and waste of it all, but then we will dry our tears and continue on with our never-ending journey, together as we have for hundreds of years.