wynsong:
wynsong,
now this post is all about me, okay, and the way I perceive what I see, and how I have seen you, ok....
Understand that as I say what I will say....
(silly huh, but oooooh sooooo important that there be no misunderstanding, k)
6/7/05 you posted this in the hobbit hole:
Does something posted on the General Board, in the General subsection have to be all about Richard Bach...?
I thought the Richard Bach stuff and trying to stay on topic or on a collateral were for the sections above...The Man...The Books.
Anyway, Bach's books tend to send my thoughts into areas that would only loosely be regarded as having to do with Bach, if you only saw the end process, and couldn't follow my thoughts path directly.
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I had just communicated with Falion and made a recommendation, do You recall?
I felt that your post was an admonition, that I was to follow your directive......and I, already wounded, from events of posts removed, caused me to hide in the hobbit hole and then I saw the last words of the above paragraph....and so I was wounded again.
Then there was this horrible affair of people calling me self-righteous, screaming at me, and and...you know.
Now I am firmly embedded within the safety of this place, licking my wounds, and evaluating myself in relation to others.
I had a friend stop by to see how I was doing there in the hobbit hole, and s(he) gently lifted me out and showed me me!
I began to see that there was nothing wrong with me.
I began to recognize the difference between what I put out and what is other peoples' stuff. So I had to look at projection and what that means.
Sweetheart there is not a one self-righteous bone in my body, but what I have done, is taken the self-righteous bones of others into me, as they have sent them in their words to me, and I have found, speaking gently here, sweetie that they are the one's that are self-righteous.
Sort of the pot calling the kettle black. This has gone on all of my life. As a result, I have basically borne the "sins" of others, because I couldn't tell the difference between you and me. Does this make sense?
Then yesterday, you posted a link and I can't find it right now, but it sent me to a place where I had to look at "trying to change people"
Now, I saw that; and also saw that I had to mirror that right back to you....as you wanted to change me, and truly sweetheart, I have looked at me, and I am just fine as I am, always open to your discoveries about you, and still am, but I
know in the core of my beingthat I am not any longer (this< is important) about "forcible change" of others.
Because of that which resides in me, I am about effecting change in others through my words. Not that they become like me, but I can "see" honey, where they are in their own progress, by the information they deliver to me.
I can tell by the words they use, and I also have a "sense"of something, hard to put a finger on, that tells me what they need. I just throw it out there, they can use it if they like, or ask questions if they choose, or ignore it. But I cannot any longer be silenced.
So by basically sending your post back to you and your viewing it, you see you. Does this make sense?
In my hobbit entry of yesterday, I did that self-examination, and oh, was I pleased to see, that my heart is so true, and always have been. Not to say that at times as I seemed frustrated that I didn't "push myself" at others trying to force them to understand my word....
It just took one, just one quietly whispering in my ear to say that my words had value, that is all it took. I thank God for that sweetie. Those soft words were with me all during the ensuing battle, and others recognized me also in my need, and supported me, or I don't think I would have made it thru.
In terms of butterflies and was it tsunami?, yes that is here, as there is a tremendous help here working on the forum, but be reminded of this....good, bad, or indifferent, butterflies, do what they do, they may touch me, but I don't need to do anything other than walk on thru, and truly, when I come out the other side, (here's scorp's rainbow), I am more loving, more clear, more stable, and have more insight, about the way things are, about the nature of reality. Look up TJ Wolf's work here it is:
Now you can see how truly subtle true evil is.....
as I posted before, I pity you if it ever touches you. evil is real...contrary to what same may think. If it ever touches you, you will know. Beyond a doubt. From experience.
A true Warrior of the Light, in my opinion, must have been touched by evil or else how would he know to recognize his enemy? Or how to fight it. Roll in dirt and it will come off. The good news is, just as a bath tub can wash the dirt off the body, the Blood of Christ can wash the dirt off the warrior.
Remember, evil will tell you the truth.
with a piece missing, thus making it a lie.
Very subtle.
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I know this is also part of the shamanic way, no, wynsong?
So we pass through the valley of the shadow of death, and though "perceived" evil may be all around, we shall never fear evil, because we know, now who we are, and that which we are, strides forth in strength!
As far as you being a failure, noo, nooo, honey, you threw me a punch, but it is up to me to deflect that punch, and silly me just turned it around and showed it to your face, no? It is ok, I know how you feel, believe me, you know I do. If there is any way I can help restore your self-esteem, please, you know where to find me..
Hang in there girl!!!!!!
lizanne333
edit: wynsong, the song Illusive Butterfly is running through my brain, do you know it?
You might have seen me runnin' through the long abandoned ruins of the dreams you left behind.
Don't be concerned, it will not harm you.......